the only way that i can best describe this week would be an out of sorts kind of week. one of those weeks where nothing catastophic happened and nothing worth writing home about happened either. this is the sort of week where so many little things aren't quite right and they just start compounding...that's the week i'm having. i'm using today's post to make me feel better like writing in my dear diary. i need to get all of these "little" things off of my brain and onto paper so to speak, and then just leave it there.
my mind has been going a hundred miles a minute in a hundred different directions. they make medication for that, right? i'm kidding. nothing like a 100 mile bike ride outside in 80 degree weather wouldn't fix but that's part of the reason i'm so out of sorts lately. now i understand seasonal affective disorder (sad). or better yet, subsyndromal seasonal affective disorder (ssad), which is a milder form of sad. just add some outdoor activity (ie. swimming and cycling) and direct sunlight and ssad is all but gone. to my friends up north, please forgive me but this florida winter has been one for the record books. it feels like it has been cold for almost a year to me. i finally bundled up yesterday because i couldn't stand to do not one more bike ride on the trainer. i put on 3 layers and headed out. i was very happy to finally ride outside, however, i also felt like i was sucking wind like an amateur. i ride hard on the stand and do intervals but it is no substitute for real outdoor riding with wind and all kinds of other variables. to make matters worse, my last 2 swims have felt like crap and i have a handful of things to consider investing in before my tentative half iron in 4 weeks. for example, should i buy a wetsuit or should i just wait and do a race later that i know i won't need a wetsuit for? which aero helmet should i buy? what hydration system should i buy? can i swim even 400 meters without feeling like i need to put an oxygen mask on at the end? what makes me think i can swim 1.2 miles if i can't even do 400m? in a nutshell, everything just sucks this week...at least in my mind's eye.
patience grasshopper, patience...ok, i feel better now.